2008年12月31日水曜日

Insomnia

It's now 2:16am here in Arizona. Lately, I dread going to bed. I have a growing resentment of sleep. Not to mention that sleep comes with difficultly. I always find that when it's time to turn off my computer, I feel a tinge of anger. I feel angry that I have to resign myself to sleep. I feel like I have so much to do and I don't want to interrupt it for something as stupid as sleep.

Lately all of my free time as been devoted to reading. I digest manga, read through novels, and yet, there's always more I want to read. There's always more to learn. There's so much I want to and expand upon. So many articles I want to write. There simply isn't enough time to do it all, and when I have to sleep, I have to resign for the day. It's a surrender, almost.

When I do lay down in bed, sleep doesn't come easy. I lay there for hours, and I can't stop thinking. I'm still wondering how I can read better, how I can use the SRS more efficiently, how to refine what I do even more. I even had a notepad by my bed for a while, it's endless.

For as long as I can remember, even in my earliest memories, I hated sleep. I often wished I could have insomnia. I wonder if this is just the manifestation of my wish after years of my disgust.

3 件のコメント:

  1. Here's something that changed my life; it was originally suggested to me by Steve Pavlina. Rather than have a fixed bedtime and waketime, only have a fixed waketime. Go to bed whenever you get tired, whether that means 10pm or 5am or whatever. Initially there may be a few days where you're a zombie as you transition into it, but soon your body will let you know when you really need to go to bed naturally...

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  2. I forgot to emphasize in the last comment.. never deviate from the fixed wake up time. Even if it means only getting 1 hour of sleep.. if your fixed wake up time is 8am, wake up at 8am no matter when you went to sleep.

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  3. You should try polyphasic sleeping :)

    I've got no link on me right now, but it involes sleeping more than once a day to reduce the total time spent on sleeping.

    Though I don't recommend it while you're acquiring a language, it takes some time to getting used to, so you'll be sleepy all day.

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